Hmmm...What really in my mind i could not let go and let my friend to find out even my best friends ? I really think i can let go of my pure and naive thoughts to be nice to everyone . When i feel anger when they spoke that name to me i just pretended i m okay without him . Am i already let go everything included sweetness and bitterness he left for me even i started new relationship with someone ? Did i just use him to cover up my heart broken so i won`t be so sad over the past ? I m so confused over myself now . I need HELP ! Should i be more faithfully to myself  but been to faithfully in  the end i will be the only one who hurt deeply . I could not stand anymore off pain cause during romance happened . Perhaps without HIS drugs , i m useless . heartless. sadness .lonely.Even now appearance of good guy in front of me , i won`t be look at them . Perhaps love is too BLIND for human . Stages of life more developed over and over .  Am i too over  with my stupidity or naive ? Out of my life .Please let me go. What is gone , GONE .!